Hospital Stays & Work Disappointments

I feel ripped off, you know? I tried my best. I really did. However, the time has come where the company is just milking me for cash and I just don't have it. I mean, I haven't made a dime and yet I have to pay $80 to have access to the company features and another $80 to have an active merchant's account. Then they want me to be able to pay for shipping credits as well as leads. My coach suggests that I go buy samples, then give them away in exchange for a phone number at a gym or other weight loss facility. I'm a fat girl; who the f**k is going to buy a weight loss product from my crippled a**?

Oh, well. In the meantime, I spent about 4 days in the hospital being strictly monitored for my blood pressure and a bad case of cellulitus. Cellulitus is a condition caused by poor health in general. It's kind of a way of saying "your body is screwed up, but we don't exactly know why, so just eat better". There is no cause or cure for it, just treatment and a suggestion of better diet. So, I'm taking a lot of antibiotics and limiting my sugar intake, since all I ever do is drink soda. I've switched to diet. Diet Pepsi isn't so bad; neither is Diet Cherry Pepsi.

Also, our bathroom is having issues. When we moved into this apartment, there was a piece of ..I don't know.. porcelain.. ? Anyway, it was caulked into this hole in the bottom of our tub. Now, the piece has gotten loose and gone missing and our tub leaks into the carpet outside the bathroom now. Additionally, our disposal is broken and the sink on that side refuses to drain at more than a snail's pace, so we can only do dishes in the one side of the sink. Now, our refrigerator has broken down. The lower inside is staying fairly cool, luckily, but the freezer isn't keeping anything cold. I feel like the apartment is against me on having to deal with maintenance, because I really don't want to. Honestly, I'm terrified that they will ask me badgering questions about why this place is falling apart, why didn't I call sooner (which I did), why didn't I keep calling, why, why, why. I have no grounds for fearing this: the people who work in our complex, security, maintenance and office reps all love us and are terribly nice and helpful to us. But, everytime I think to reach for the phone and call the maintenance crew to come look, I'm scared they're going to tell me I ruined something beyond repair and that things will just get worse for us.

I thought I would feel better after getting that last bit off my chest; I actually feel worse. @_@;

Well, look forward to some updates on my cooking blog soon enough. I'll need to be cooking whatever I can from the fridge as soon as possible due to it being nonfunctional. I'm thinking stuffed bell peppers and twice baked potatoes. Got ideas for names for these recipes? They'll contain cheese, grains and possibly root veggies, so keep that in mind. And remember, always a pagan-related name!

Happy Lughnasadh, everyone! What are you thankful for in your life? I don't know about anyone else, but I'm thrilled that the dark time is finally here! Yay, cooler weather is coming ever closer!